weird is as weird gets..

i had this crazy assed dream this morning..and i think snippets of which were influenced by last night..

it comes in 2 parts..well..3..i think..

first was me..in this school like building..there were people around..then there was talk of a rocket landing but no one took notice of it because no one expected it to land there..but moments later it did..im starting to think this part of the dream was influenced by the Transformers trailer..the rocket landed upright and a brief moment later it transformed into this tower like thing with lights and house music..it caused the glass windows of the building to shatter..but the interesting part was that it shattered into water..and only reverted into its glass form upon hitting the floor..so people were running around..then i bump into who else but my baby Erwin who i had dinner with the night before..he joined me in maneuvering around the place..i remember a double decker bus somewhere along the lines..but im not caring bout anything else but my baby E..

second part..i was lying in bed..my middle, ring and pinky fingers on both hands were severed at the second joint..quite weird come to think of  it..but it was fully healed..and i could do things normally with no concern for my disfigurement..but for some reason i was just so be in bed and doctors would come see me to check on me..prob influenced by watching The Biggest Loser and hearing the word Diabetes..go figure..

last part..some futuristic kinda looking cop on a futuristic kinda looking bicycle..stopped in front of us(whoever we may be)..dismounts and leaves his bike there while he runs off after something..so i take the bike..n end up cycling around a HDB block with very open spaces..all the people in the area were kinda zombified..but not killer zombie types..just air in the head kinda zombies..then saw the cop again..out of uniform..he sees that i have his bike and i try to evade him by heading to the beach which is right behind the block??? haa..i threaten to dump the bike into the waters..and  he catches up with me..stands in front of me in the water in his black trunks..i relented and returned the bike to him..telling him that i think he was cute..we got out of the water and headed back upstairs..i saw him briefly one last time..this time i had a nice view of what i liked to see..haa..

then i was awoken by an sms..by who else..but my baby E.. =)

anyway..me n E had a very nice quiet dinner..i bought sushi as per his request..and brought it to his workplace..and we ate..had a few drinks with him and chatted and chatted until closing..then we went for supper at Maxwell Market before heading our separate ways..gonna see him again for dinner again this sunday.. =)

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Aze-ology

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***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
No particular fave..

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Tampines West CC McDonalds..heee..

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
Marmite Chicken With Rice Plus Egg..twice a day even..

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
CHEEEEESSSSEEEE!!

What do you like to put on your toast?
Condensed Milk and Milo powder..heee..

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
5..but only 3 in use..the other 2 in storage..

what color of cell phone do you have?
Black..most of my phones have been..

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Lefty!!

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
not that i know of..the aliens might have done something but i have no knowledge of that..

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
my ass off my bed this afternoon..

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
does under the influence of alcohol count?

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
heck..why not..

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
!XOBILE..

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
add one more zero to that..

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
too many..

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
couple of weeks back...kena spot check while in a cab..

Last person you talked to?
Ari..my bro..

Last person you hugged?

my baby Albert..

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
Sunny..

Holiday?
i hate holidays..means more work..

Day of the week?
currently..my off days..and days i get to see my A and E..

Month?
Feb..the shortest..haa..

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
Albert..Erwin..and yes..if its not obvious enough..Zaccheus..=)

Mood?
better than just now..thanks to my baby Erwin..

What are you listening to?
im watching tv..

Watching?
2 And A Half Men..

Worrying about?
if i should eat right now..

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
sleep..haa..

What's the last movie you saw?
The Notebook..

Do you smile often?
only if i have to..

QUESTIONS

1) Do you always answer your phone?
No..haa..

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Erwin.. =)

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?

one green and one blue..

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
huh?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
yes but im planning to buy my dream cam next month..

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
Yes..they died..

7) Favorite Christmas song?
Silent Night..

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
world peace..

9) Can you do push ups?
i should hope so..

10) Can you do a chin up?
i pray that i still can..

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
it is what it is..

12) Do you have any saved texts?
459..from A and E..

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
nope..

14) Do you have an accent?
only when i speak to ang mohs..haa..or silly lil vietnamese american boy..

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
Only Hope..

16) Plans tonight?
work..

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
only too often..

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
Double Cheeseburger..Mineshine Milk Tea..Fried Noodles..

19) Have you ever been given roses?
not that i can remember..

20) Current worry?
what time to sleep..

21) Current hate right now?
that i cant be with either A and E..

22) Met someone who changed your life?
too many..

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
work..

24) What song represents you?
Theme from Schindlers List..

25) Name three people who might complete this?
whoever is as bored as i am right now la..

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
work..

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
did E msg me?

are you gonna be a sinner who weeps?

man..here i am..the commuting blogger..back again..on one of my long train rides to work..i actually am glad to be at work..at least there is something there to keep me occupied and the people at work matter too..worked with my baby the past 2 days..so im happy..happy that Rob is back too..i think things will start to pick up from here on..though i must say..i think the whole new seating arrangement sucks..all high tables on the 3rd tier..totally unbalances the room..

anyway..i was talking to Nhu the other night..and also Rob the other day..bout my innate ability to fall in love with straight men..Rob and me came to a conclusion that i’m basically a straight woman trapped in a gay man’s body..which pretty much sums it..i have that strong need to find a guy who is capable of taking care of me..as opposed to me always being the one wearing the pants in a relationship..it got me thinking..fact is..its almost impossible for me to find someone to fit the bill..it would have to be someone at least of my height or taller just to even things out..im always the taller domineering one..he would also need to be someone of my age or slightly older because young boys just dont think on the same wavelength..i dont know..i guess its just easier for me to put my heart out on my sleeve and go for straight boys..cause i know where they will fall in the gender role section of the relationship..and im not even talking bout sex..im just talking bout intimacy and the relationship as a whole..

Fizah asked me why i dont endeavor to turn them straight boys around..and join the dark side..and while its a totally feasible plan..i told her my experience with David..in all honesty..it’d be too much work..and when he turns back the other way..hey..its me with fork plunged into my heart that is worn on my sleeve..too much effort..way too much..

well..for most of it..im glad i have other things to keep me occupied..so i dont have to spend my spare time pondering my fate as a 27yr old single faggot in Singapore in 2009..

oh yeah..i’m like so gonna get myself a new camera next month..hope all works out  well with my finances..then with camera in hand..i’ll be on my quest to rediscover the colours that seem to have  faded and dulled over these years..

Chalet in late march hopefully..

Bangkok in April..

Shanghai in July perhaps..

 

i was thinking..i would like to visit Goa too..haa..

 

cheers..

oh what a tangled web..

so whats new pussycat..

for those of you who do not know yet..i've been on MC the past few days..nothing life threathening..yet..doc diagnosed it as a Viral Exanthem..quoted possible Rubella..in layman's terms..its just a viral rash which might be German Measles..its not an allergic rash..its a viral rash..so right now my whole body kinda looks like..its supposed to..spotted..doc does not want me going to work or anywhere out of the house for that matter for the sole fact that Rubella might be infectious to young kids who are not immunised against it and also pregnant women..

it did bother me that my lymph node at the back of my neck got swollen during the 2nd day..but i wikied it and found out that its kinda normal during infections..even doc says so..its gone down a tad bit so doc says i'm probably out of the acute stage..the spots are starting to reduce as well..

it sucks to be stuck at home..i had to miss 2 days of working with my baby..miss Robbie's return..miss seeing Meff before he goes back..cant say that i miss alcohol though..thats something good that came out of this..ooh..i miss marmite chicken dammit..

anyway..once again..i sincerely thanks you guys for the care and concern and well wishes..but seriously..i just feel so friggin smothered..so please stop it..for me to say im on MC is just to tell you guys that i will be cooped up at home and not be at work..its not an open invite for countless people telling me to drink more water and get more rest..spare me the formalities..i wont be shy about it..im well liked cause im a likeable person..thats why people care..its obviously not because of my money for i have none..or my looks or my body of which both are only just substantial..but for whatever reason..just know..i'd probably wont care if u have the flu..or sprained your toe..or broke a nail..i cant really care much to care unless im getting something out of it..so im not surprised if you treat me the same..really..

anyway..how cool is it that a Friday the 13th falls before Valentines Day..they should do like a movie..'Jason Falls In Love..And Dies..Again..'

enuff crap..go to sleep..

25 things..

tonnes of you tagged me..so i guess i’ll succumb and get it over and done with..

1) I was born with birthmarks on both legs..the one on the left is pretty obvious and stretches from my heel all the way up to my butt..the one on the right has pretty much been merged with my tan..

2) I used to stay in Changi Prison as a toddler since my father was a prison warden and had his quarters in the prison compound..it was a 3 or 4 storey building and everyone knew each other..

3) I was called Michael in Kindergarten because my teacher Ms Lim had difficulty pronouncing my full name..the name was given to me by George who was one of my best friends in class..why Michael..go figure..

4) I only went through 1 year of Kindergarten because i started school one year later than supposed..i used to think i was special..haa..

5) The only sport i did in primary school were 5-stones and the 2-lined version of zero point..i sucked at Inclined Flex Arm Hang..and i ran slower than a girl twice my size..

6) i reckon this is taking much longer than i had initially anticipated and it would seem that i have to travel to boon lay and back before i can actually finish this and go to work..hey..it is supposed to be a random thing right..

7) I was in NCC for 2 years in secondary school but hated it because the teacher in charge only paid attention to the boys who gave him trouble..hello..some attention here please!!

8) so i ditched NCC in sec 3 and  joined  the dance club..one of 2 boys in an all girls club..i got the attention i wanted and thus an attention seeker was born..

9) i used to have a crush on my best friend..he had a thing for my (then) gf’s best friend..he called her h2o..i called him h2o2..

10) i ditched said best friend in poly..and found many cute chinese guys to flirt with..i think h2o2 was the start of my lifelong curse of loving str8 men..

11) i had a str8 ‘bf’ in poly whose name is that of my current boi boi..Danson..i think we once freaked our lecturer out during class when we were standing around the lecturer and i had my arms around him..

12) my tanning days started at Sunset Bay..my brother Edmund who i was kinda into..was the one responsible for that..and i’ve loved tanning and the beach since..

13) in bmt..my PC used to call me J-Lo because he caught me dancing in the gym one night..

14) back track..i had my first beer and smoke in Bali back in Sec 3..with my parents..it was Bir Bintang..and their sole purpose is for me to try and be put off by it..little did they know..haa..

15) in brunei as a cadet..me and my team survived on the Asam Fruit for 2 full days cause we were too overconfident when we got to Mt Biang and finished all our food..thank god for Cpt Bonnie who taught me bout Asam..

16) i am about to reach Outram Park and I am still here typing this..when will i finish?!?!?

17) ok..one day later..in the train..i’m continuing this..bleah!

18) the biggest complaint i ever gotten from my trainees..my mood swings..go figure..haa..

19) i have been rollerblading since 1994..almost got my lifeguard certification in sec 3..and have been a bitch since the dawn of time..

20) i am currently reading Eckhart Tolle’s “A New Earth”..but the biggest impact a book ever had on me is definitely Dan Millman’s “Way Of The Peaceful Warrior” which I started reading in Primary 6..imagine..a pri 6 student reading a self help/philosophical book..how screwed up was i..haa..but that was the book that helped change me and make me the man i am today..

21) there are 2 guys i majorly love and they are my bestie (cue Omie..) and my buddy (cue Z..)..there are 2 other guys i really like and one is my BG boyfriend (cue Albert..) and silly nilly sally boy (cue Erwin..)..

22) i can’t believe i’m about to finish this post..i cant wait to so move on from this..this is really taking up my tie and brain cells..

23) for those of you who still do not know..i am left handed..but that applies to only 3 aspects of my life..writing..using chopsticks..and wanking..i shoot (with deadly accuracy i might add..) my M16s and SAR21s like a regular right hander..

24) the one song that goes over and over and over again in my phone right now is Josh Groban’s “You’re Still You”..there is just something slightly romantic and powerful  bout the song..

25) oooh..this one i like..quite a number of you are familiar with this but i just cant help writing it down..i can recite the first 20 elements of the periodic table in order..and usually would do so when i’m intoxicated just to prove that i’m still thinking straight..but the planets in our solar system still evades me..haa..ooh..i know the 7 colours of the rainbow in order too..i am such faggoty geek right..haa..

im happy beyond words..

Through the darkness 
I can see your light 
And you will always shine 
And I can feel your heart in mine 
Your face I've memorized 
I idolize just you 

I look up to 
Everything you are 
In my eyes you do no wrong 
I've loved you for so long 
And after all is said and done 
You're still you 
After all 
You're still you 

You walk past me 
I can feel your pain 
Time changes everything 
One truth always stays the same 
You're still you 
After all 
You're still you 

I look up to 
Everything you are 
In my eyes you do no wrong 
And I believe in you 
Although you never asked me to 
I will remember you 
And what life put you through 

And in this cruel and lonely world 
I found one love 
You're still you 
After all 
You're still you

i got to see someone today..i went down to his workplace to give him Kit Kat chocolates..cause he needed a break..and some Ginseng Chrysanthemum Tea from the Chinese Medicine Shop..tot it might do him some good.. and so..i got to see him smile..and got a hug from him too.. =)

im a happy beaver beyond words.. =)

Zaccheus Lee..

i miss u buddy..

oh ya..im at Newton with my army buddies..Tocky..Rashes and Bazim..very full from eating all that seafood.. =)

Ab Fab Sunday 2009..

ok..for the uninitiated..Ab Fab Sunday is basically drinking Absolut Mango and having a fabulous time..on a beach..on Sunday..ok..so next time i say Ab Fab Sunday..make sure u know..don know can ask ah..don keep quiet..and then miss out on an Ab Fab Sunday.. ;p

got there at 4..had to walk all the way from the beach stop to km8 cause the damn tram service closed due to the Sentosa Flowers..had so much fun at KM8 though..the drinks we had..the yu sheng..all the martial arts and other stuff we learnt..haa..i would wanna blog more la..but im in my comfortable position on my bed..so i'll just post pics..plus i got something i wanna do for someone special first.. =)

filler..

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